Jaswinder Bolina


Oak Park Elegy

after John Scurlock of Shreveport

Optimism’s a funny color on a couple 

of Virgos, but here we go retiling the powder 

room in quartz again as if industry is rewarded 

by anything other than industry in the middle 

of all this whatever this is. First, aperitifs, 

then crudité. First, boxed wine, then chitchat 

over cakes of an almost imperceptible desire. 

Thus, the seasons bustle onward rebranding 

themselves so the Weber and Kingsford people 

keep extending their ad buys deeper into pumpkin-

picking, pigskin weather, and we feel weirdly 

sweaty disemboweling the turkey on an island 

in the kitchen when the kid says, Momma, 

I’m gonna need a doper raincoat in this piss 

pot of a winter. It gets so you wish there were 

actual barbarians at the gate, anyone to crush 

with a mace, but there is no gate, not one guy 

in a pelt banging with any malice, just dad bods 

and threenagers storming the bouncy castle,

and a magician at the party keeps disappearing 

the rabbits and doves, but we can see plain 

as day how he does it snapping their necks,

tossing them over his shoulder, simple as that!

Don’t blame me, I voted for the other guy, 

but somebody still has to pay for this shit.

 

Bob Dylan Elegy

Your use of synergy in the absence of any irony 

contributed more than a little to the divorce 

and your insistence on to be frankthe Sixties,

as it were, and other such phrases you’d tic out

though all of us shuddered, like you’d lean in real 

breathy to say, Gimme the straight dope, sweetheart

to the cashier in the A&W like you were a couple 

of rocket stages nestled into each other, 

and that you fucked other people didn’t help, 

but I couldn’t, just couldn’t stomach your reveries 

on Faulkner and Mailer, scotch and Larry Bird 

any longer, your insistence on high fidelity 

audio equipment on which you’d mostly play 

bootlegs of Bob Dylan, insistently, oozingly 

calling him dYlan like he was a beloved 

Labrador struck by a Coke truck and you 

in your beat-up Chuck’s, a cowlick, ripped 

Levi’s bearing his corpse out of a ditch to bury 

beneath the ole willow tree, you tell everyone

you’re still that kid your old man called squirt

those sober hours when bread cost a nickel 

and a car cost a nickel and a house cost a nickel, 

and all Minnesota smelled like a full ashtray 

but in a good way, you say, flashing your corned 

teeth, the vein in your temple making a teeny 

Mississippi coursing into the wispy white laurel 

of your last hairdo, which are all things I could have 

overlooked for a little less cliché in your Converse, 

a little more rigor in your ditties, but that’s just 

the way things were back in those days, you’d say 

back in those days gunning to get my goat.

 

Bird Elegy

after Constantin Brâncuși

Today we found a bird, you and I, splayed 

like a ragged umbrella in our bathrobes 

on the balcony after a hootenanny of a storm 

is something I can’t say in painting or in sculpture

or in French, it being impossible to translate 

my hokey, Midwestern grief into mixed media, 

and I don’t know French I must confess

in English to you and the baby perched

in his jumperoo while plucking the bird body 

clean off rancid stucco with a grocery bag, 

and I think he understands me, the baby,

though he doesn’t speak French or English, 

he knows painting, sculpture, not the words 

but the contours of sorrow, poor little 

fellow, molded into what he doesn’t know 

is America, a Saturday, a May on a planet

he doesn’t know what a fucking planet is 

or the blimp drifting overhead like a conceptual 

rubber ducky or a grayscale sketch of a bird 

in flight which is the opposite of this stiff

hanky crumpled like a grey equation on the patio 

where I adore you because you can’t stop sobbing, 

your tears are shiny, bronze figurines in the gallery 

of your face so when you ask, What chance 

do any of us have? the baby disagrees and peeps, 

Bon chance, mes petit oiseaux, bon chance!