rob mclennan


Autobiography

1.

 

Intimation, and the whole

of the poem. Ringo Starr: his early morning meander 

 

in A Hard Day’s Night (1964), a scene originated

 

as the young lad too hung over 

from the night prior

 

to do much else. One knows the language,

and the frame of reference. Love and terror; the body

 

and our means. This long tidal reach, across

forty-five navigation locks. The possibility

 

of leaving everything intact

 

is overwhelming.

 

 

2.

 

Invasions, glance. Rhetorical, amid

the constant shift. Embanking floodplains,

 

a triptych of valley, gateway,

estuary. The Tower of Babel, and

 

the full weight

 

of cultural history. Some greyhounds

can sink

 

like a stone.

 

3.

 

Rarified: capturing the shadows

of a wordless art. Beatlemania. He walked the day’s breath,

 

the glint of light on the cut. Britain’s shoreline

of liquid history: this medial

 

muddy

 

watercourse. Ringo Starr, with each 

dense step. Strolled solo, monochrome

 

and sepia, his perambulation

 

along the River Thames towpath,

the embankment in Kew, Surrey. The Neolithic page,

 

horizon. One of the very best

in London.

 

Summer, pandemic

1.

 

Reading Etel Adnan’s Seasons, I perch in precooked car

awaiting our cat, in his follow up appointment

 

to recent dental extraction. This body as a means

 

to dialogue, and his teeth held

in synaptic space. From this lone parking lot

 

in Ottawa’s east end, veterinarian staff report his outbursts, frustrated

 

at their prodding. He is such

a mood. 

 

 

2.

 

I read my book: a constant shift

of mourning, shallows. She mentions stiffness,

 

rain, and wind. Under sun’s corrosive eye,

 

self-conscious breath, of breathing. Face-masked. 

And yet, to say the truth: three

 

withering dandelion heads on the passenger side,

half an orange crayon on the floor mat.

 

A shadowed road. A crosswind.

 

 

3.

 

The hottest Vancouver on record. The hottest Ottawa

on record. The hottest Toronto 

 

on record. The hottest Pakistan

on record. Our own details

 

have betrayed us. Adnan: Our civilization’s

growth is cancerous.

 

 

4.

 

As we move through, seasons. Clouds, this

breezeless air. An asphalt

 

of reflected heat.

 

This is a time travel story: for sale, cat’s 

Elizabethan collar, newly worn. The painkillers

 

we administer, with the usual contusions.

At nine years old,

 

his age

 

is finally matched to mine. Old enough to undermine

the logic

 

of the pre-determined body.

 

 

5.

 

Confronts the table leg,

the chair leg, his

 

water bowl, and loses. This plastic cone

a rhetorical theatre

 

he can’t conceive. A week’s worth of

auto-generated

 

hang-dog expression.

 

 

6.

 

Four teeth removed, including, ironically enough,

his feline canines: costs enough

 

we could have purchased

 

another car. Our cat is now

a car. Small engine roars, and roars,

 

and hums.        I drive him finally home,

 

a threaded language for every future.

 

Seven poems on a return to the world

1.

 

To live is neither vertical nor horizontal. To ripple, outward. Outward, in.

 

This stretch of fourteen, sixteen months.

 

I could imagine my body a map. Beyond imagination, comparison.

 

A nesting of dolls. If you will. Of the fact of this writing.

 

 

2.

 

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3.

 

Exclusions. Suddenly, a sense of rhythm. 

 

This puff of smoke. We count trees. We ask for their names.

 

We write out dead relatives. The names of wildflowers.

 

Upon reflection: the only access to the infinite.

 

 

4.

 

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5.

 

Hide in the bushes. Someone walks past. To re-learn conversation, speech.

 

Grammatical patterns, in soil. The point of a finger.

 

The way of apprehending anything. An element of structure. Someone

 

wants a baby to hold. We haven’t any.

 

We listen for the bees; avoid wasps. Scan exteriors for vespiaries.

 

 

6.

 

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7.

 

We survey mosaics. Underneath the groundswell, flowerbeds; the pavement.

 

Another radius of blocks. A hesitation to emerge. Scathed, in the essence.

 

This might be an elegy. An elegy to what.

 

Author bio:

Rob Mclennan currently lives in Ottawa, where he is home full-time with the two wee girls he shares with Christine McNair. The author of more than thirty trade books of poetry, fiction and non-fiction, his most recent poetry titles include A halt, which is empty (Mansfield Press, 2019) and Life sentence, (Spuyten Duyvil, 2019), with a further poetry title, the book of smaller, forthcoming from University of Calgary Press in April 2022. In spring 2020, he won ‘best pandemic beard’ from Coach House Books via Twitter, of which he is extremely proud (and mentions constantly). He spent the 2007-8 academic year in Edmonton as writer-in-residence at the University of Alberta, and regularly posts reviews, essays, interviews and other notices at robmclennan.blogspot.com