Yvonne Amey


I Have Already Apologized to Myself for Being Friends with You, Barbara

and don’t be alarmed if you find yourself in a crack den, 

or at least standing 

on the bones of its porch, 

and if you’re not the star of this documentary, 

someone you love is, say, parents of an infant 

and the infant 

in a kitchen that smells like burning meat and late rent 

and you only know 

how toxic you are by the dead-river current 

winding within you, 

but you leave a light on anyway inside you

and the snow falls 

into your ungloved hand which holds that feeling 

of being left behind on the moon 

and you spend Christmas day smoking like a bus’s muffler 

in Michigan winter, 

and when you arrive home there are months 

of messages, alarmed voices 

on the other end, asking if you are still alive and to call them.

 

January 1st : The Time to Reflect on All the Horrible Things that Have Happened in 20 Years

Snow is glitter falling from the sky.

How we hate medicine.

Danny is stuck in the garage again 

with beer & still alive.

Daniel’s dancing in Carley’s yellow unitard.

Your kids are too young

to understand how defective I am

visiting men in a halfway home 

in Mennonite Lancaster.

The Mennonite Board of Medicine

is revoking my medical license.

G is single and unmarried

to his home-birthing wife.

Ernie, Tracy, Ray Ray & Prince are alive. 

It’s 4 am; Mom is huffing out of the emergency room 

before I have a bed in rehab—

I miss all of that.

 

Author Bio:

Yvonne Amey is a poet living in Florida. She has an MFA from the University of Central Florida and her work has appeared in Tin House, The Florida Review, Rattle, Pleiades, Hobart, Juked, Rhino, and elsewhere.